who cares

Today is Wednesday. Good, it's closer to Friday. Surprise, surprise, this week on Friday I won't be playing ball at Akula. I guess you could say that this made my week. Stupid eligibility shtuff. Nothing made me not play. Nothing made me so much more tired of showing up in school. Who'd want to come to Akiuk for school anyway? If they do, for why? No reason to come here. Same as any other place. Same problems as anyother plaee. Only difference is who the people are, and quite frankly, if I had the chance to chose where to school, I'd chose any where BUT here. I'm not whining about the school and the teachers or even the people who attend it, I'm just saying what I feel.
Being a senior, and being so close to being finished made me really look at Akiuk. Made me see what kind of place this is behind all the fake sympathies and even some people. Annoying the crap out of me.
AMS. Those are the initials to our school. Sounds a lil like something, ah? Well, there you have it. Bu-tung-tung.
Back to business. In a matter of days school is going to be out for Christmas break. That is the only thing that motivates me to go to school. Nothing else does. Nothing interests me. Nothing is here for me, but whining and eyes. Nothing but eyes and whine. So why show up? Other than needing to attend in order to graduate? Slowly the time is flying by. Next thing I know, the class of 2010 will be off to college. I can't wait to get out of this place. Out of having to show up in school, and out of the village. Away from home, but ont too far. I'm not allowed to go out of state, and I am not allowed to go any where but Bethel for my first year. It's true, my parents said so. They already had it all planned out before I even graduated. I asked is I could go to Juneau, but no. Anchorage, but no. I even asked to go to Fairbanks, no. Same thing everytime. SO I guess that Bethel is my only choice. It's either that or becoming a bum. Why would I waste my tme here, when I can go out of here? Hopefully for good?