senioritis

Today, is Thursday. I'm in this teacher aide class minding my own business, listening to the voices of the students. How boring. The Internet is annoyingly slow today, and it is driving me crazy. After oversleeping, to slow Internet. Senioritis, or however you spell it. Mr. says I got it bad. Worst case, but I'm still alive. Or I was since the last time I checked. School has been ticking me off, because everyday it gets worse. Pretty soon everything is going to go downhill.

Alright, back to this class. Right now DJ is just standing in front of the students talking, and the students are either putting their thumbs up or down. How interesting; how fun, not! Boring, dude! I'm more of a demanding kind of person. I need interesting and fun things to do! I needa move around, or get a new environment. I've been stuck in this little village my whole life. Now, being a senior, I have a chance to get out and be be on my own! Now that is what I call exciting! College!!!

All I have to do is graduate, and I'm sure as heck going to make sure it happens. There is no way I am going to be a fifth year. Nuh-uh. I'm seventeen years old, the only girl, attending Akiuk, and living in this here villie. INow that is boring. I want to be out of the village life, and into the modern world. I don't exactly know what I want to be when i grow up, but I am sure about what I am going to do. Who is ready to know exactly what they want to be when they grow up?

who cares

Today is Wednesday. Good, it's closer to Friday. Surprise, surprise, this week on Friday I won't be playing ball at Akula. I guess you could say that this made my week. Stupid eligibility shtuff. Nothing made me not play. Nothing made me so much more tired of showing up in school. Who'd want to come to Akiuk for school anyway? If they do, for why? No reason to come here. Same as any other place. Same problems as anyother plaee. Only difference is who the people are, and quite frankly, if I had the chance to chose where to school, I'd chose any where BUT here. I'm not whining about the school and the teachers or even the people who attend it, I'm just saying what I feel.
Being a senior, and being so close to being finished made me really look at Akiuk. Made me see what kind of place this is behind all the fake sympathies and even some people. Annoying the crap out of me.
AMS. Those are the initials to our school. Sounds a lil like something, ah? Well, there you have it. Bu-tung-tung.
Back to business. In a matter of days school is going to be out for Christmas break. That is the only thing that motivates me to go to school. Nothing else does. Nothing interests me. Nothing is here for me, but whining and eyes. Nothing but eyes and whine. So why show up? Other than needing to attend in order to graduate? Slowly the time is flying by. Next thing I know, the class of 2010 will be off to college. I can't wait to get out of this place. Out of having to show up in school, and out of the village. Away from home, but ont too far. I'm not allowed to go out of state, and I am not allowed to go any where but Bethel for my first year. It's true, my parents said so. They already had it all planned out before I even graduated. I asked is I could go to Juneau, but no. Anchorage, but no. I even asked to go to Fairbanks, no. Same thing everytime. SO I guess that Bethel is my only choice. It's either that or becoming a bum. Why would I waste my tme here, when I can go out of here? Hopefully for good?

"bah-dow"

I like this picture. It's says "bah-dow." I think I got this from myhotcomments.com, but I don't know. I don't remember where I got it from. It's been a while since I checked around the Internet. All I've been doing is checking hoverspot and facebook. This week I'm hoping that I will work, but chances are likely that I'll be on hoverspot before the day is over. No doubt about that.

Internet is my worst enemy this year. I have to work. I need to graduate. I want to be done with this school year. No matter what happens, no matter who is in my way, I will be done. I don't have to look back to all those years of BS. Yeah, I said it, BS. I'm tired of Akiuk, and every year its going to get worse, but what do I care? I'm graduating. I won't be here when everything changes dramatically. I'm happy that I'm a senior, and I'm happy that the junior highers are going to try take over high school. I won't be here.

Being done with high school is the first thing on my mind. I've dealt with this place and the teachers, no offense DJ, since I started high school. Freshmeat is on its way. I hope they like it. This blog is plain and simple. I'm tired of showing up at school.