Totally and Completely Messed

Okay, let's get this done.
Today is Friday, supposedly the best day of the week. I woke up today going crazy looking for my eye ointment thing (nasty). Oh, yesterday I didn't go to school because I was too mad at my pink eye for being pink. Figures, I always end up getting pink eye. Well, enough of my eye business. Today, like I said before, is Friday. Volleyball night, and yes, I am excited.
I wish we could have traveled for volleyball, but it's okay. Either way we are going to play volleyball. That's all I can ask for. I love volleyball, even more than basketball which is a little weird. Looking back to long time ago (LOL), I never thought that Akiuk would have a volleyball team. I used to watch the grown-ups play volleyball, and they looked so cool to me. Back then, I used to hide in the bathroom, and secretly watch them. Right when I turned 13, I started to play. I loved it. It was so fun! I was scared, for sure, but it was "da bomb diggity." This post was a little old, but I have to finish it.
This today it now be... Wait, let me rephrase that. Today is Thursday and I'm sicker than sick can be. My nose is stuffy and runny, my eye is watering, and my cough hurts like crap. Nothing but sneezing and coughing, and coughing and sneezing. Darnit. I've never felt this crappy since I don't remember when. All I know is right now I'm doing nothing but sneezing.
Back to work, and I don't want to be here. I am uncomfortable being here, and I wish I could go home. There is people I don't want to see, even they live here. Which is kind of weird because I live here, IT lives here and same villie as well. I'm like [beaver] dam. (LOL)
I did not go school for a while. Ever since Friday, and its been about a week. I mean I'm here now, on a Thursday, sicker than sick can be. I got used to jamming out to slow songs instead of heavy metal like usual. I don't know how my music interests changed from hardcore heavy metal to slwo songs with meaningful words. Yuck! I know I love music, but to have that drastic change is kind of weird. I was always thinking of the dark and being nice and alone. I love being alone in the dark. It makes me feel crazy. Eh! Well, that pretty much it. I love wearing only black, wearing too dark make-up, thinking dark thoughts and death itself. Questioning it, understanding it. Searching it. IDK why I like thinking. It passes the time. it lets me have something to do.